Thursday, April 20, 2017

"I'm fine...no....really"



So I'm sitting here at my desk, in my office, very quietly freaking out. You see, today I have suddenly had all of my former coworkers duties piled upon me after only a VERY brief training period yesterday. And let me be frank, I did not want her job. I still don't want her job.

So I'm sitting in my office dreading every call that comes into our department, every interpreter who comes in with a question, every email that gets forwarded to my work inbox. Because I am NOT prepared. I am NOT ready for this. And my boss isn't even in the office today - so I'm really floundering right now.

I'm on my third cup of coffee, too. It's only 1 pm. Gods help me.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

...it's a promotion...

It would seem, this is the nature of office work. First, your boss loads you up with more and more tasks relevant to your position as they believe you are comfortable. Then, they start asking for personal favors like scanning documents or fetching coffee. And finally, after the only competent person in the office tenders their resignation, your boss asks you to take over THEIR job duties on top of yours.

Which I guess is technically a promotion.

Thing is....I don't want it. I'm not interested in taking over my coworker's job. Her position is very HR orientated with a lot of receptionist work. It involves answering phones all day, talking to interpreters and applicants, setting people up for orientations or classes, sending emails out to people and keeping track of a lot of information. It's very high pressure and customer service oriented.

And that's just not....me. I'm quiet. I'm introverted. I'm socially anxious. If I wanted to be a receptionist, I would have applied for those kinds of jobs. If I was cut out for customer service, retail wouldn't have destroyed me the way it did. If I didn't have a phone phobia, I could have gotten easy work in a call center.

I really can't do her job. And she agrees with me. Everyone else in the office agrees with me. It's just not a good fit - they're better off hiring someone who's more cut out for it. And I need to stress that point to my boss, repeatedly it seems. I mean...if she doesn't listen to me I'll have to quit - I can't allow my anxiety to get out of hand again.

So I guess that's what I'm really worried about. That if I give an inch and even "temporarily" take on some of the duties of my coworker, that I'll be stuck with them. And then I'll get sick again - and since this company doesn't even offer health benefits - I can't afford to have a mental breakdown.

I'll just have to gather my strength and schedule a time to sit down with my boss to tell her where my boundaries are. It'll be scary and nerve-wracking but I need to do it.

Sorry to vent to you, dear readers. I just needed to get some of this off my chest.

Monday, April 3, 2017

Um, hello....? Is this thing on?!



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