Monday, March 24, 2014

Style Inspiration: Lost Girl's "Kenzi"

Lost Girl is a SyFy series about a Succubus new to the Fae world and her exploits in it. Her sidekick, Kenzi, is a rather impish little human girl with some pretty fantastic fashion. 

Known for her dark hair and thick rimmed eyes, Kenzi is the show's quintessential Goth girl with attitude. She has a fetish for sexy footwear and almost always sports fishnet somewhere on her person. She's also quite the fan of the ever-so-sketchy Hot Topic corset top. 

I'm absolutely in love with Kenzi and it doesn't hurt that I want to borrow literally every item in her closet (even if her choice of footwear would do me some serious harm), so in the spirit of playing some really fun dress up, I'm gonna break it down in case you want to emulate her quirky style too!

1. Long hair/Thick fringe - While Kenzi does sport a variety of hair styles (and colors thanks to her wig collection), her signature style is long black hair with a blunt fringe. This is not something I can currently pull off being that I'm rocking a pixie these days, but you can easily pick up a cheap black wig with bangs and stick some colored extensions in it for that Kenzi crazy pop. 

2. Black, black eyeliner - Kenzi tends to go pretty light on the eye shadow, at most I see her rocking a silvery smoky eye, but she really amps it up with the thick eyeliner. Done up in a cat eye shape without the harsh wing, her makeup is suitable for just about every eye type. Keep it close to the lash line on the bottom though, it's dark but it's NOT raccoon eyes!

3. Layers - start with a sheer lace or fishnet top and pair with a fitted tank top or t-shirt. Then place a cool jacket or corset style (underbust maybe) top over that. Kenzi's also fond of thick belts that wrap around her waist if that suits you better. I know it does for me! DON'T forget to slick a pair of arm warmers or sleeves over your forearms. 

4. Kenzi adores her shoes. She's especially into chunky heeled boots with buckles or straps - like most Goth girls. Chances are high that you're current collection will fit into Kenzi style just fine.

5. Colored jeans - Kenzi seems to like colored pants - when she wears them. Dark purple, bright magenta, royal blue - it's all good. If they've got zippers or are paired with a trippy belt, even better.

6. Attitude! - If there's one thing Kenzi is known for in Lost Girl, it's her peppy attitude and street smarts. Girl's got a wicked tongue and a dirty sense of humor. And no filter! So smile, joke around, have fun with being yourself and make everyone think you're awesome. That's the Kenzi way. :)

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Well guys...

It's been a while since I've written anything here and for that I apologize. Things have been very similar to a gut-wrenching roller coaster lately and I'm kind of surprised I haven't spilled my metaphorical stomach contents yet.

It's the first week back after a week long spring break, where I experienced only a mild increase in overall temperature and no change in status of stress levels or mental state. I kind of thought I would be relieved to come back to my apartment and get away from everyone else's stress, but it turns out dealing with only my own is a lot harder.

The road to surviving this semester intact is a steep up-hill climb and I don't feel right now that I have the stamina to make it there. At least not on my own. I'm absolutely terrified of making contact with the outside world for fear of being told it's too late and I'm screwed. But holing up in my own sick, sad little world isn't helping either. I'm kind of at a loss. 

I don't check my school email for this reason. I know I've got tons of messages from worried professors, health-care professional, residential life - but there might also be that one that says it's too late and nothing can be helped.

I'm afraid of that email. Genuinely. 

I think I'm sketchy about checking my phone messages for the same reason. 

Christ, I'm shaking and near to crying just writing this down. It's something that I tend to avoid even thinking about. My natural instinct is to just throw myself head-first into some fictional world and never crawl back out. I went through the entire series of Buffy in about week because of this. That's seven seasons, back to back. 

Sleep is the only real reprieve and what I get of that is dubious at best. My dreams tend to reflect my fears and insecurities these days - I dream about my ex sometimes and when I wake up I feel ill. Maybe if I make myself vomit, the icky feelings will go away. It'll probably come out like a black sludge.

That's some dark shit right there isn't it? Sorry.

I keep it together so well on the outside and I think that's why most people don't suspect how bad it actually is. That's really my fault, though. A little bit of outward vulnerability might prove useful, if displayed in front of those who want to help. Still, I feel like I break down and cry in front of a professor that I've made a fool of myself and I might never be able to stop. I hate appearing weak, I really do.

And that weakness can't be allowed to spill over. 

I have to email two professors about my chances at passing their courses. Then I have to contact Records and Registration to see about getting something dropped from my transcript. I'm hoping for the best, but....

Sometimes ignorance is bliss. Too bad that sensation is so fleeting.