You know that feeling you get when you have a TON of homework piling up and a lot of studying to do and you JUST don't feel like doing it? Yeah - I'm having that issue right now. So I'm on Youtube watching gaming videos and rearranging my living room. Yes. It's nearly 9 pm and I'm moving my furniture around. Good gods.
But maybe a visual change will be a good thing. I'm trying to make some major changes in my life - get my shit together and back on the wagon. I have plans. I set goals. I need to remember them and why I'm here. I can't keep slacking off and just letting it all slip away. I can't just sleep away my life or hide in this apartment forever. Nothing will change and it's not very productive.
So I'm making changes. I want to be a better person. A better friend. A better student, etc. And it's gonna be a hard road out, but I plan to face my depression and anxiety issues head-on. I CAN conquer this. I CAN handle this. I CAN rise above. I just have to believe that.
I stopped seeing my counselor. The whole process really wasn't helping me much. I know what I need to do - constantly reiterating in front of some trained professional isn't going to help. I just have to get out there and DO what I know I need to do.
So bare with me - I'm coming out of the tail end of an identity crisis.
Last weekend, my mom hosted a small Halloween party for some family and friends. I used it as a grand opportunity to doll up to my Gothy best, but before all that:
On Halloween proper - I dressed up in one of my favorite Bodyline pieces and went to class. I got a lot of compliments on my "Halloween outfit" - no one called it a costume. ^_^ After that, the boy and I went up to JoAnn fabrics to pick up supplies for his costume. It took us a while - I can't believe how busy that place was on a weekday. We spent most of Friday putting together costumes, messing with last minute decorations, and planning games. I made a rather interesting drinking board game.
Saturday morning came and went. We got ourselves dressed up and bustled around the kitchen getting the food ready. It was hectic and stressful, but in the end it all paid off!
Hat - Target
Blouse - thrifted
Skirt - Bodyline
Tights - DEB
Boots - thrifted
Hat - Modified Bodyline
Coat - Punk Rave
Mask - Walmart
Shirt - thrifted
Overall I had a pretty good time and got pretty hammered. I don't drink that much so it was kind of nice to do it in the company of people I enjoyed being around. Cleanup was kind of a pain, but we managed to get the food put away before crashing. And the best part - no hangover!