Friday, October 26, 2012

Nevermore....two excellent raven makeup looks!

With Halloween swiftly approaching, there are NO shortages of really cool makeup tutorials popping up on Youtube. Some of them are downright creepy (like this one: here ) and some of them are kind of cutesy and girly (like this one: here )

But my two favorites that I've come across so far are very recent tutorials involving crows and ravens, respectively.

The first one is by makeup guru MissChievous and her look aims to emulate a crow with very feathered black eyebrows and striking facial contouring:

You know, it kind of reminds me of that Miley Cyrus music video, the one for Can't Be Tamed, in which she's dressed like a bird.

The second tutorial is from GoldieStarling and hers is a Poe inspired makeup featuring a Raven look. This involves heavy eyeshadow, some glittery dappling, feathering of eye-liner and super dark lips:

This is decidedly more Burton-esque, but in truth I actually really love them both and might give them a try for some Halloween parties I may partake in soon. Watch them and tell me what you think. Do you have any cool makeup looks you do for Halloween?

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Bat Fit food post!

So I recently joined a Facebook group called BatFit, and they've posted a lot of yummy looking recipes on there. This inspired me to start creating some of my own dishes that are healthy and tasty too!

Tonight's entree:

Salmon and Veggie Stir-fry

What you need:

 A small individual serving of salmon (one filet is good)
 An assortment of yummy veggies of your choice (I used butternut squash, zucchini, and broccoli)
 Spaghetti noodles
 Hoisin or Teriyaki sauce

What you need to DO:

 Get some water boiling in a sauce pan.
 Chop up your veggies into chunks
 Skin your salmon filet and also chop into bite-size pieces.
 Combine veggies and salmon in a frying pan, drizzle with sauce and stir

 Cook noodles separately while heating up veggie combo
 Once noodles are cooked, drain and add to frying pan
 Stir and heat through, making sure your veggies are at the right crunch level for you and the salmon is cooked to your preference
 Dump onto plate and grab fork or chopsticks

 Now eat it, fool.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


Good afternoon, snarklings. It was a glorious day filled with sleeping late, misting rain, dreary clouds, biker boots and of course, cupcakes!

That's right. My friend Katie made some Halloween cupcakes over the weekend but NO ONE in her house showed up to eat any and she didn't want them to go to waste. So I selflessly offered to help her out and I picked up a cupcake from her this afternoon.

It was delicious! I love cupcakes and since I've been eating healthy lately, it was a wonderful indulgence. I enjoyed this scrumptious tiny cake thing with a cup of tea and all was well in the world, yet again.

And....I made a video. I stopped doing it for a while since I was terribly uninspired and I felt that nobody bothered to watch them anyways. Here ya go:

Hope you're all having a fantabulous day and enjoy whatever kind of spooky weather you're having!

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Darkest Before The Dawn

I slept for two hours and 30 minutes last night. Which suited me just fine. I was coming back around when my alarm went off at 7:45 am. I was SOOOO tempted to just throw the phone across the room and say "fuck life, I'm goin' back to bed!" but then I remembered the little pep talk my boy gave me last night and forced myself in to the bathroom. The morning ritual commenced and after a small breakfast (with orange juice!) I headed for class.

I got there pretty early and nearly fell asleep in the hallway waiting for the professor to come and open up the room. Once in there, the girl that usually sits next to me read me my horoscope on her phone. She does this every now and then and we're always amazed at how uncannily true their predictions are.

I don't really believe in horoscopes. Yeah, there may be some truth to our destinies lying somewhere out in the stars, but for the most part, horoscopes are a crock. And I'm okay with this.

The last one she read off for me about a week ago involved changes coming and coming up fast. That in the end they would have a positive result, even if I didn't see it. Well yeah, that was the end of midterms and the moment I decided that I needed to get my shit in gear.

Today's was.....scary in it's accuracy. Like....spooky enough to give me shivers and I don't normally react to things like that. But at the same time, it also gave me hope.

It basically summarized all the troubles I've been going through and outlining my hopelessness of the past few weeks and then going on to say that it's always darkest just before the sun comes up and even if it seems like it could get no darker now, that means the sun is just beyond the horizon and to hang in there.

It was Made me feel hopeful, I guess. Even though I don't put stock into things like that, really. But maybe there's something or someone out there trying to give me a sign, since I've been praying for help the last few days. I guess something heard me and I'm eternally grateful if they sent me that message.

Moving on to the cheery stuff:

I've started printing out inspiring and up-lifiting quotes with lovely photos to tape on my walls. I've got three up already and they make me smile when I read them. One of them is even a quote from Lord Byron. Hellz yeah!

I've been exercising a bit lately too and my torso is SO SORE from the recent ab workouts I've been doing. But it's a good kind of sore and it makes me feel productive. I've been snacking on carrots and baby spinach too and with any luck I can have the boy drag me to the grocery store tomorrow to pick up more healthy goodies. ^_^

Also....I'm totally committed to this "get fit" thing - I ordered some athletic shoes off Payless. They're a simple black athletic sneaker and they were on sale. My size was still in stock and it looks as though I could easily swap out the boring black laces for something cool like Halloween ones.

I want to start running again. I used to really enjoy the burn in my legs and belly from pushing my endurance. The racing heart, the sweat beading off my neck, the warm flush on my face. I actually used to enjoy that, because I felt like I did something good for my body.

I'm sure my endurance is absolute garbage now, so I'll have to take it slow. Now I just need a running buddy. I'm sure Steph would be up for it though.

So with good eating and good moving out of the way, I need to tackle good sleeping. I should probably invest in a non-addictive sleep aid and let all the kinks work themselves out. That seems like a good start for now.

So what do you all recommend for ooky-spooky workout clothing? Give me your tips and ideas below!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Going off the Deep End

For the past couple of weeks, my depression has been getting worse. I was really hesitant to bring it up on my blog because I know people in the past have gotten flack for "airing their dirty laundry", so to speak. But not many people read this blog and those who do regularly know me fairly well and know that I've been having problems in the past, so it's nothing new.

For the past couple of weeks I've been going to bed hoping I don't wake up in the morning. I'm just so tired and frustrated all the time and all I want to do is stay curled up in bed and not face the world at all. I haven't been making it to classes much lately and that's been getting me into trouble as well. I'm behind in some homework and what's still piling up just adds to the stress of feeling like I'm being buried. It's so hard to be motivated and work on anything when you just don't care what happens anymore.

It's hard to talk to anyone because if they aren't going through it then they don't understand it. I know they mean well when they tell me to talk to someone or have my medication altered or try to do something positive and productive during the day. I know they mean well and I appreciate it, but it doesn't always help. Sometimes it makes it worse because it just reminds me of how far I have yet to go or what I haven't yet achieved. 

Yesterday, things started boiling over. I was feeling mildly homicidal. My cat hissed at me a few times yesterday when I went to visit her. I had a rather bleak conversation with a friend. Some asshat cat-called me from his car when I was walking home. I just wanted to beat the life out of someone and it was SO HARD to reign in that impulse. I felt like I wasn't myself and it scared me.

I don't think my meds are helping anymore. I still take them but I don't see a difference. I still cry everyday. I still feel hopeless and lost and alone. I still have no motivation. So I've decided maybe relying solely on the medication isn't the best option. I want to take steps to become a healthier person. I want to exercise more and get fit again. I want to eat better. I want to socialize and make friends I can count on and trust. I want to become a better student. I just need....some support and motivation.

If you have any ideas that you think would help me, please feel free to leave a comment below. I could use all the help I can get these days. 

Monday, October 15, 2012

It's not over...

So it's Monday evening and I'm back from my very short (4-day) Fall Break. I spent a good chunk of it sleeping, watching all the available Paranormal Activity films, and dying my hair. Overall I'd say it was quite eventful but far too short. I wanted even more time to not think about school.

But I'm back and now it's time to get down to business. Ha! I'm currently watching Ten Things I Hate About You and finishing off my dinner which consisted of a spinach and carrot salad with two burritos. Not the best combination but I washed it down with some Chai tea so all is well in the world.

Also, because of Eva's lovely gift of pumpkin spiced tea, I went ahead and bought a metal tea infuser off Stash's tea website. They even have some Matcha on there for under $20, ahhhh! So excited. I'd really like to buy more since I'm a HUGE fan of Matcha green tea. Huzzah in the name of tea related goodness. Once my "ball" arrives, I think I'm gonna go ahead and invest in more loose leaf tea because it's amazing.


But anyways, it's time to get back into the swing of things. Wish me luck!

Splat! Purple Dye Review

I dyed my hair purple last year too. That was right before Halloween and I went crazy doing the bleaching and dying bit. In the end, I had to use two boxes of dye to get the level of purple I wanted and even then it barely held. I think my mistake was in dying right after bleaching and then not leaving the dye in long enough.

So over the weekend, I bought a box of this dye once again to give it another go. This time I did not bleach my hair but went straight to the dye itself. I applied it around 9 pm and slept with it in. I had a lot of success doing this with Raw and Manic Panic, so I tried the same technique here. The box said to leave the dye in for about 35 minutes....but I know better.



Can you see the gradient effect there? I reckon that's from having my hair tied up with the dye in it so the color became more concentrated there. But I rather like the effect. It looks cool in person. Last time I would have given Splat! a 2.5/5 and this time around (doing it my way!) I'm giving it 4/5. 

Depending on how fast it washes/fades out, I may go to Hot Topic and pick up one of their brands to try as well. Then I can make a comparison! Yay!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

"Now I'm in Zero Gravity!"

Bubble Goth is defined two different ways:

In fashion terms it's defined as wearing something that is light, cute, wonderful but can also be described as cute, creepy, or dark. This style was coined by Estonian singer Kerli Koiv

Bubble Goth is also a genre of music that sounds very bubble gum but has Goth lyrics - typically dealing with topics like vampires, zombies, death, and other taboo subjects. The music itself can sound very upbeat or mellow, but the lyrics are traditionally always dark in nature.

Here's an example of Kerli's music style. I'm really quite fond of her as an artist but I know many people that dislike her voice, her musical style, or just her in general. That's fine...There are actually other Bubble Goth artists out there, but if you're interested I'm gonna let you hunt them down yourself!

Kerli herself describes the Bubble Goth style as one that mixes in very extreme elements to make one off-beat look. For example, spikes on a white lacy headband or a Lolita dress made of PVC. 

Here are some of her more popular looks regarding Bubble Goth:

As you can clearly see, Bubble Goth pulls in elements from many different areas of fashion. There are cutesy frills and bows borrowed from Lolita fashion, dread-falls and platforms snatched up from other alternative groups, cyberlox and brightly colored spandex from Cyber Goth.

Also, this style bares some mild resemblance to the Pastel Goth/Gothic Pastel look that's recently become popular, but Bubble Goth incorporates far more in terms of "objects" acceptable to wear. Want a hat made out of a teddy bear? Go for it. Thinking of wearing a pink nurse costume and black thigh-highs? Do it! It's an anything goes sort of style as long as you mix the creepy and cute elements together in a way that doesn't look like a total hot mess.

I know I sound a bit like I'm being critical of this style, but I'm just pointing out facts. Actually, I really LOVE the Bubble Goth style and look forward to incorporating more of it into my wardrobe. If you've got the same idea, here's some tips:

Shoes: Popular footwear in Bubble Goth include spiked heels (like those above) and platforms of any style or height. If you've already got a pair of monster platform boots, you're already on your way. Maybe wrap the length of the boot in pink ribbon or lace...?

Hair: Pretty much any hair color or style can work in this look, but white or pastel hair with bangs seems to be the most popular. If you're not kosher on doing something extreme with your own hair, wigs can be purchased on line for rather cheap. Add in a spiky headband, a giant bow, or even some dread-falls.

Clothing: Pink and white seem to be the most prevalent here, along with black of course. But in theory you could really work any color into a Bubble Goth coordinate. Here, the girl above is rocking some pastel purple hair with a punk bustier and a tight fitting skirt with garter straps hanging from it. This harkens back to extreme elements paired together - in this case the fetishism of a dominatrix and the cutesy girlishness of the light pink shade. 

This style can be eased into very easily. If you're like me...and want to start slow, try mixing a pastel color with your basic black. The girl in the photo above is wearing a black bustier style top with a detachable collar (all the rage currently so those are easy to find!) and a pastel purple skirt with some polka dot leggings and boots. Her hair is very light and her lips very dark, adding some contrast. 

In a few days, I'll post some Bubble Goth makeup ideas, since it's something that I really want to mess around with also. Until then, stay tuned!!! 

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Better Days

I've added a Halloween counter to my blog. I remember doing it last year as well, so I think it'll become an annual thing now.

Currently, I'm chilling in my room and watching Spirited Away now that I got my television set mostly sorted out. I just finished eating a beef stir-fry with rice that I whipped up fast and it was delicious. Now I'm contemplating dessert....I don't want to bake anything though.

I had a rather good day. Classes were fine, I visited Shadow (who nearly tore my arm off) and relaxed in my comfy new sweats and my Ouija board shirt. All in all, pretty good.

Tomorrow I'll be donating plasma again, so that'll bring in some more money. I have to add minutes to my phone since it runs out tomorrow. After that I can start saving up for groceries and whatnot....yup.

I'm going to make a VALIANT effort to get caught up and stay on top of my classwork. That will be a little bit less to worry about and then I can focus on making sure I don't drive myself crazy.

Even though I turned 25 yesterday, I really don't feel it. I guess age is just a number after all. I mean, most of the time I feel like I'm sixteen and still super naive and hopeful. Other times I feel ancient and that the world is going to hell in a hand-basket.

Since I really didn't get to do much for my actual birthday, the boy is taking me out to an Izakaya next weekend. So I can suck down some Japanese style booze and nom on takoyaki. That should more than make up for any unpleasantness incurred during the week and such.

Monday, October 1, 2012

a very un-merry birthday...

This was...ultimately not the best birthday weekend. Saturday kicked off with a dumb fight with my boyfriend, over mis-communication of many people's faults, primarily my own. It was the perfect ending to an otherwise tense and shitty week. Saturday basically left me feeling like I wanted to die. 

I did receive a lovely package though, from my beloved friend Eva. It was a canister of Pumpkin Chai tea and I'll tell you - it smells and tastes delicious. Although now I'm going to have to go in search of a mesh tea strainer/ball in order to make brewing said tea a little easier. 

She left me a cute little birthday card featuring her own adorable artwork and it was literally the only thing on Saturday that made me smile.

In the end, I did resolve the conflict with the boy and things became much less tense and angry. I still wasn't feeling any cheerier but I did my best to hide it, as I did all of Sunday as well. I even pulled myself together enough to help Mom paint the taller areas of the house and complete an online exam. 

I finally decided to bring my TV up to campus with me only to find out that either my TV is broken, the cables are bad, or there simply IS not viable cable in my bedroom. So I can't watch TV after all. I tried hooking up only the DVD player but that didn't work either so I'm concluding that my TV is just busted. 

Well shit. 

So here's my 25 birthday. I'm spending it by myself, in class or working on homework in my room, and actually wishing I could just sleep the whole thing off and forget it ever happened.