Tonight, there's an event going on here on campus that is showing the pro-life bent abortion documentary Blood Money. Have you heard of it? Yeah, I hadn't either, so I looked into it:
This politically right-wing "documentary" about abortions and the secretive dirty acts by the Planned Parenthood organization is a film put together by those who very strongly oppose abortion and won't listen to any other views about it.
After watching the trailer and reading the site: here, this whole thing reminds me of the debates I used to have with people who would NOT listen to the other side and hear each other out. So I opted not to attend this event on campus that will take place shortly.
I'm a strong supporter of Planned Parenthood. I always have been and after they saved my life a few years ago I know I always will be. If it weren't for them giving me the advice and options I needed, I wouldn't be here right now.
*And this is the point where I will end up losing followers*
I had an abortion in 2008. I was in the beginnings of a new relationship, where everything was new and exciting. We were practicing safe sex. And a few months in, I got pregnant. If recollection serves, I was about 19 at that time and scared out of my mind. I didn't want to be a mother. I hated kids (I still do, in fact) and I had PLANS! for my life, you know?
So, with the help of my mother and this new beau of mine, I contacted Planned Parenthood and scheduled an appointment. I met with doctors and counselors; who examined me, determined how far along I was (5 1/2 weeks) and told me about my options. They didn't push me one way or another, just let me vent my feelings and come to my own natural decision.
I chose to abort. I was five and a half weeks pregnant, so they gave me the medical abortion, which is a set of pills that release certain hormones, causing the uterus lining to break down and flush out. It was gruesome, like having the worst period of your life. I was sick for weeks afterwards and couldn't eat without throwing up. But I knew the side effects. I had made my choice.
My pregnancy was a little embryotic sac no bigger than a dime. Tiny. Just a clump of cells....there's no way I could wrap my head around the idea that I was killing a baby. That's what so many of my former "friends" tried to convince me that I had done, but scientifically that didn't make sense.
I was pro-choice back then. It's amazing how solid you think you are in your stance on an issue like that until you wind up in a bad situation of your own and have to rethink it all. And trust me, you do have to rethink everything. After all's been said and done, I'm still pro-choice. I'm just not pro-abortion.
It's a sad reality that many women wind up with unplanned pregnancies. In an ideal world, we could simply prevent that from happening and there would be no need for abortions. But we don't live in an ideal world, and so the necessity remains. We don't have to like it. We just have to let people choose.
This was a very hard thing for me to write about here, and it's a very personal issue. I think that's why I opted not to attend the event. It hits too close to home and I'm already in a fragile state of mind. I don't feel like being accused of being a monster tonight. I faced enough of that back then....
I get upset when people demonize Planned Parenthood. They were there when I needed them. They got me through a tough time and even gave me free birth control after the fact. They're a godsend to low income families, especially those who can't afford health insurance. They do breast exams and cancer screening, birth control, counseling services, provide a ton of great information on safe sex and so much more. And most of this can be obtained for free!
Most Planned Parenthood facilities to not perform abortions. There's only one in my home state that does, the rest simply act as sexual health clinics and they do a damn fine job of it.
Anyways...I think I've done enough rambling and shared enough of myself tonight. Toodles~