There's only been one day so far I've worn black in college. That was during Orientation, before classes even started. Okay, I admit it. I'm a coward. I'm kind of afraid to go all out with my fashion choices here on campus. I've had a GOOD look at what kind of people I'm dealing with. Blonde bimbos and jocks/bros mostly. I've only met and hung out with like two people who are semi-zany and crazy like me.
I've got this itch to throw something black, lacy, and ripped on. I want to parade about looking scary as hell. I want to FUCKING EXPRESS MYSELF. But like I said, I'm a coward. I'm not so much afraid of the reactions I'll get but that this will end up affecting my performance in class if my classmates won't communicate with me.
I know college is "supposed" to be more liberal and laid back but so far that's not what I'm experiencing. It feels pretty rigid and h i g h s c h o o l like. Which is actually really hard for me to deal with since I've been out of school for so long. I forgot how naive and clique-y people this age could be.
But I'm going to start regardless. I'm going to ease in, I think. Wearing more and more black, darker makeup, accessories, crazy hair, etc. I'll work it in slowly until I feel comfortable and they're reasonably accustomed.
I can't wait to see what reactions I'll get to Lolita.